Tuesday, August 28, 2007

2nd day of school

We made it to the 2nd day of school! When I picked her up yesterday, she couldn't stop talking about everything they did at school. She seemed to have a really good time. I am relieved that she did. She was just as excited to get up this morning and get to school. When we got there this morning she jumped right in and started helping the other kids with there breakfast. She is such a little helper!! What a great trait for our young children to have. I can say yesterday was hard for me on more levels than one. It was hard letting go of my baby and an unexpected feeling of missing my mom (more than usual). There has not been a day since she went to heaven that I do not think of her. Everyday I think of things she did, hear songs she liked, do something like she did, etc. But yesterday was different, I do not know how to explain it. I guess it was such a milestone for Savannah and me that I wanted her to be there to share it with me. I guess I am alittle mad that she is not here, she missed seeing her granddaughter and that is not fair. She has missed out on my happiness, she has missed meeting my wonderful husband, my beautiful daughter, seeing me grow in my faith and so many more things. I know life is not fair, but I am venting about what I am feeling at this moment. Satan will take every opportunity to jump in and take your eyes of Jesus Christ. I do know that she is in a much better place, she is no longer in pain, she is surrounded in the loving arms of our Heavenly Father. But I miss her. What a great thing as Christians that we have heaven waiting for us. What a wonderful reward and a free gift from our God. "For the wages of sin is death, but the free gift of God is eternal life through Christ Jesus our Lord." Romans 6:23. "Jesus replied, "If you only knew the gift God has for you and who you are speaking to, you would ask me, and I would give you the living water." John 4:10. "God sent his Son into the world not to judge the world, but to save the world through Him." John 3:17. If we accept Jesus as our Lord and Savior than we too will have a place in heaven. And then once again we will be reunited with our loved ones that are already there.


~ Amy ~ said...

Vent, vent, vent. It is so theraputic. I lost my Grandpa this year and it's been a tough one to swallow. He was the one who taught me everything I know about horses and ranching. He was a true cowboy in every sense of the word. Some days are hard and some I'm more understanding - I'll get there, just not there yet.

Thank you for visiting my site. I'll be back to visit yours, as I see we have somethings in common.

Take care!!

kdwhorses said...

Thanks for your sweet comments. Yes, it is hard at times when we have lost loved ones. I am sorry to hear about your Grandpa, but what great memeories you have of him. How great that we have such great loved ones in our lives. I enjoyed your site as well and will be checking in regularly with you, as we do have alot in common.
God Bless!